Love Letters - 0005

"To love you is to witness my unabated selfishness.

The degrading things you allow me to do to you in our sex, the arrogance you fed in me and allowed me still haunt my mind. I have yet to encounter another person so self-destructive, and even now I know I could go to you and have you without resistance. The question is no longer if I am sick enough to do it again, but when? Perhaps it is you exploring your traumas through me, and I flinch at my worthiness to be given such a place of honor. Regardless, you amuse me, my pet.

I love you, but not as an equal. I would ask if you accept this, but we both know your answer."